Almost nothing in sight

I do not have a middle point, definitely not. Either I hardly type new entries on the blog because I am too busy doing cool things or I don't type them because I am bored to death, doing nothing interesting other than sleeping, eating, working and going to the gym. That's exactly what I've been doing since I came back from Istanbul and what I am planning to do for the next weeks. Apart from a weekend in Düsseldorf to play a basketball tournament and a couple of days in Cologne, the horizon appears clear in the distance and there is nothing until mid May. I'll tell you about that when the moment arrives.

The months before Christmas were very quiet, I had low batteries and blah blah. Christmas time was quite good and then I had that highlight of Istanbul, which has kept me alive since. I got a boost after that trip and I was euphoric the following days, but it is all gone again. However, I am ok and happy because, in fact, this reasonably quiet lifestyle is helping to achieve some objectives. But on the other hand, I know that this is not my natural state. Maybe it is the winter, that this year feels longer. We will see if the spring changes something.

The three main objectives that I am achieving lately are being more tidy (it may sound stupid, I know), focusing on learning German and gaining weight by working out and eating properly. I tend to keep my little studio reasonably clean and tidy but not because I am like that, but right the opposite. I am a disaster and I like to live in a small place because it is easier to keep under control. Spending longer at home makes it possible. Then I am also finally learning German online. It is not much, it is not great, it would take ages to be fluent with this system... but at least I have found a website I quite like and it is helping. If I had started three years ago when I arrived, I would definitely be able to speak more than I do now. And finally, I have to say (even if it sounds shallow -I don't care, I never said I am not) that I am rather happy with my progress at the gym. Not only it helps me to stay away from a screen for some hours (phone, laptop, console, pc, tv), but I have regular eating and exercising habits that make me look good as well as feel good inside. I like this routine, which I have planned much better than last year (when I also tried to learn German and gain weight but I hardly managed to do it).

So, at least, those things related to my life being stable and keeping in the right direction are ok. There is just that one thing missing to make me feel great inside as well. It may come with the weather or not. I am also aware of the bad results my company is getting lately as I read them on newspapers. I am expectant to see the competitors movements and if they are good or bad for us. I hope that doesn't mean that my position is in risk, as I really like the balance my life has reached thanks to this job and this city and I would hate a change of either right now. Nothing is safe though these days with the current financial situation and I am getting lazy with changes: bad combination... I am confident things will be ok.